An Honest Confession

It is month two, post graduation, and I find myself needing to be honest with you all.

There is an ever-fixed fear and doubt in me that lies just beneath my surface.

When you choose a career path like the one I have chosen, you know that it is a risk. Hundreds, even thousands of other people are trying to achieve the same thing that I am -- to be the next great voice in film. And the question remains; what makes me different? My answer is always the same:

I will never stop trying.

Many people I have talked to recently or heard about seem to have chosen this path because they want fame or they want money or they want to be the best at something or... shockingly enough, they think it's easy. And every time I think about my reasoning, it never seems to waver from the fact that I do this because it never felt like a choice to me. It was more than a desire. It was a necessity.

All of those other reasons leave space for giving up or feeling unsuccessful or doubting so much, that you'd rather find something else to do. I'm not like that.

Yes, I doubt. Myself. My work. But I won't let that stop me and it never will. Because I feel successful every time I put a word on a page. Especially on the days when I don't feel good enough.

This industry is full of nay-sayers and side eyes and rejection which, often times, is not an easy environment to actively choose to be a part of. But on the other side of that lies the power to say something to the world. The side of untold stories and voices that deserve to be heard. I yearn to be the pen that writes those stories.

My fear and my doubt are what push me to do better. Be better. Be worthy of the pen I hold.

So what is my confession?

I am scared. And that is why I will succeed.